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Posted on Mon Aug 30, 2010 by Loren Easterling
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Birth Mother Testimony

The process of adoption is not an easy one, for the parents it’s heartbreaking and for the child it becomes confusing. I would like to share with you my thoughts and feelings about adoption and what it has been like healing and knowing in my heart that I did the right thing. I would also like to share with you how covenant care and my family have helped me through it all.

The day that I found out I was pregnant I didn’t know what to do. As a teenager you never stop and think about what one poor decision can lead to, and what the consequences of that decision were going to be. Being a teen mom wasn’t going to be easy and I knew I couldn’t do it alone. The doctor’s visits were particularly hard for me because I was in denial about the whole thing. I finally got up the courage to talk to my doctor about adoption; she gave some information about different adoption agencies. After some research covenant care seemed to be the best. I eventually talked to my parents about it and they agreed, it was a good idea. So the next day I gave them a call.

Less than an hour later I was on the phone with the woman that would help me with my decision, Miss Vicki. As I spoke with Miss Vicki I felt more comfortable, she never judged me and I couldn’t wait to meet her. Besides my family Miss Vicki was there for me and I could always call her and ask her any questions I had. She always let me know that I was doing a beautiful thing, and she never lied to me. Miss Vicki let me know what she had seen other girls go through and let me know that it was not going to be easy. I knew that adoption was the best thing to do, because it wasn’t all about me any more I had to do the best thing for my son. I was able to choose what family would be the best for him, I was able to read profiles and look at pictures once I knew I made the right choice I felt even better.

Miss Vicki continued to help me and talk to me about the entire process. On June 16, 2009 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. That’s when it began to it hard, because I knew that he was going to go home soon to his new family. In the back of my mind all I could think about was the ten days I had to change my mind. I wanted my baby back but I could not be selfish enough to pick up the phone and call. I would never be able to take my son away from a wonderful life I knew he was going to have.

I felt so many emotions during this time. I was hurt and upset because it just didn’t seem fair, that one mistake could lead to such heart ache. I kept asking myself did I do the right thing? Through all of this Miss Vicki and my family have been there and have helped me see that I’ve done whats in my sons best intrest.

Covenant care, Miss Vicki and my family have been such a big help throughout this whole process and I could never ask for more. Miss Vicki and I still talk and I love it. I hope someday to help women how are going through the same thing I have, and know that I am there to help them and not judge them.

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Tuesday, August 31, 2010 at 11:20 AM Keisha Pitts says:

That was a beautiful story! I can understand the loss that you felt at the time of giving away your child. I had a miscarriage a year ago and it felt like my entire world had come to an end. I had kidney disease for 7 years and I was told by my doctors that I could not get pregnant. And low in behold ...... as my husband and I were going for transplant evaluation, we found out we were preganant! Of course we were very excited and scared at the same time. Well shortly after that I lost the baby. But God blessed me with a new kidney the following year. I was so hurt at fist and didn't understand why God allowed that to happen. It took some time to get over it, but in my heart I will never forget about my child. Right now we are looking forward to our two year check-up hoping to be ready to conceive! Lately I have been excited and nervous about having a baby. I still worry about having another miscarriage. I don't know if I could go through that again. My husband and I have looked at Christain Care several times over the years. I won't you to know that you and others like you are truly a blessing. For women like me, it is so hard for us to understand why we can't have children. But God allowed us to be blessed through people like you. And know that you are blessed too for being a blessing to others!

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